In my previous post I began sharing about my faith walk in entrepreneurship. A huge part of that was surrendering to the fact that I actually am an entrepreneur and not cut out to be someone’s employee for the rest of my life. As I kept trying to fit my square peg into the round hole of corporate America, I was overworked simply because I’m an overachiever by nature but I certainly wasn’t compensated for it. Shoot, I even got fired from one job a week after being given accolades and a promotion for my performance because of hearsay from a co-worker.
I told my mother I was a corporate misfit and she got upset. She didn’t understand that there was a higher calling on me. She just thought I didn’t want to work. You see, most people think a “higher calling” has to do with traditional ministry. Mine was to the ministry of business. So I struggled like a fish out of water at every job I have had (and if you look at the unabbreviated version of my resume you will see that I’ve had plenty of jobs). I knew plenty of times I was supposed to start businesses. It is no exaggeration when I say I get at least 2-3 business ideas a week. The inspiration wasn’t the problem; it was my lack of faith. My fear and those “voices of reason” kept me from being obedient to the call. It wasn’t until I had exhausted all of my own efforts and was completely depleted and burnt to a crisp that I threw my hands up and thrust myself into full-time entrepreneurship. You see, whenever there is fear, faith suffocates. I was afraid. I was putting my faith not in God, but in my own ability and finite resources. I had no real vision of what was possible; I only saw what I thought was impossible. And God sat there on the sidelines letting me do what I thought was best because that’s what everyone else was doing.
I had the faith piece in the fact that I was a believer. I had the business savvy, plans and ideas. But I hadn’t put the two together. For me, intersecting faith and business began when I just stepped out with nothing but my confidence in God. I had to look back and realize how many times He had kept me to appreciate His love for me. His provision, grace and the supernatural empowerment that He had already given me to do what He had been beckoning me to do all along was more than sufficient. So I started a business that has brought me more joy and peace than any of the jobs I have had, regardless of the benefits package, pay or perks. Is it easy? When I get out of the way it is. When I let go of my preconceived ideas, my impatience, the “voices of reason” and the whispers of doubt that come when something doesn’t go how I planned, it is a cakewalk. But sometimes I make it hard. It reminds me of the story of Peter walking on water to meet Jesus. When Peter focused on Jesus he was able to sustain but as soon as his ego and self-consciousness stood up he sank.
I pray that this has inspired you in some way. It isn’t enough for you to see someone’s successes and failures without knowing the whole story. God is my success story. When things are great and even when they are not so great, my faith is what grounds me and keeps me going. Intersecting my faith and business has been one of the most awe-inspiring experiences I’ve had. I am able to truly see God in every accomplishment, every connection, every day I wake up with a smile on my face ready to do the work that is set before me.