It’s been a long time, I shouldna left you…
God has a way of getting your attention, making you realize that you are NOT in control, making you move out of comfort zone, making you trust His plan and ways. Currently I am LITERALLY living Psalm 30:5 “Weeping may last for the night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning.”
I like this translation from the New American Standard version solely because of the word shout when it refers to the joy that WILL come in the morning. On March 4th, my water broke and I was only 21 weeks pregnant. My husband and I found out that our son, Jorden, wouldn’t make it. On the 5th, I delivered him. I was in the Labor and Delivery ward of the hospital, but would be going home with no baby. I felt like a failure as a woman and a mother. I wanted to be mad at God, but my heart wouldn’t let me. The devil tried to get in my head, but I had to let him know that he couldn’t have me the way he did when my father passed away. I had a real live argument with him in the hospital in the middle of the night. I had to realize that this was God’s plan for my life. It seems harsh, but there is a lesson in it.I am NOT in control. Point.Blank.Period. The doctors don’t know why my water broke so early. There were no signs of me not having a healthy pregnancy. I believe this situation is meant to bring me even closer to God. Proverbs 3:5 says it best Trust the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding. I don’t understand why it happened, but I have to trust that God is going to come through and bless us again. When He does though….whew! There WILL be a shout of joy!! (Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy! Psalms 126:5)
The other lesson I have gained with this is I am TOO comfortable where I am at. I let complacency take over my life in every aspect. It was time for me to MOVE!! I realized the devil had snuck in, and it was time for him to go to the left, to the left. He was trying to take over my marriage, my household, my job, my business, my health, my peace, my joy, and everything God had placed before me. I was insecure, fearful, and doubtful. Psalm 56:3 states, “BUT when I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” I wasn’t doing that, I wasn’t trusting God. I wasn’t allowing Him to roam freely in my life. I realized the devil had full reign and it was time for it to stop. Listen y’all…you can pray all day long, listen to your worship music all day long, but if you aren’t ready to FIGHT the devil daily, he will come in to kill, steal, and destroy. That’s his job. The bible mentions in so many scriptures about your thoughts and how they need to stay pure. This is the main avenue the devil uses to get us to stray from God. Those thoughts you have about yourself like you aren’t beautiful, you aren’t worthy, you aren’t special, you can’t do this, you can’t do that, the lie detector determines THAT’S A LIE! I did a project for myself (that I made up..well not really, the Lord put it on my heart to do this) that forced me to debunk these lies.
I want you to do the same. So go get you a piece of paper and a pen…I’ll wait…Ready? Let’s get started. DISCLAIMER: This project is not for the faint of heart. You WILL have to turn the mirror on yourself and you WILL have to open your bible.
Write down all the lies the devil has you believing. Yes, ALL of them.
Next to those lies, find the scripture(s) that confirm they are indeed lies.
Place this paper where you can see it everyday, or take a picture of it and have it on your phone. Whenever the devil tries to put these lies back into your head and heart, you have something to fight him back.
I know what God wanted me to see is that I DID have the strength to fight, even in my darkest hours, even when I didn’t think the devil was on my tail like that. There were so many things I was believing about myself and others that just wasn’t true. Now don’t stop fighting!! Even when things seem to be going ok, you can NOT stop. When you stop, you put your guard down and make it easy for the enemy to slip in. Because of this exercise, I have a new outlook on life. Scriptures like “I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength” have a whole new meaning to me. I actually believe it in my heart that I can, as long as I keep my focus on Christ. I still believe what God told me a couple of years ago that my womb would be blessed. Just because I had a miscarriage doesn’t negate that fact. Psalm 56:4 confirms this. It states, “I praise God for what He has promised. I trust in God, so why should I be afraid?” My night is about to be over, I am seeing the sun starting to rise and it’s going to be bright and sunny day.
What are some of the lies you believe and what Scriptures are you going to use to fight?