Looking For Change?

Looking for a Change_

Seven months pregnant, cooking dinner, with light gospel music playing in the back ground on my under the counter mounted radio, my husband walks through the front door from work and before I could kiss him or say hello, I spill my heart out…”Dear I need to get a part time job. I love being at home with the kids but I need a change and to get out, stretch my wings and live a little. I find myself to be lonely and as if I have gifts that I’m not using. I see other women going to work and having something of their own and I find myself becoming a little down and jealous. I believe that possibly it’s time for me to try something new. I seen the perfect career opportunity and I would love to apply.”

Being an at home mom for 8 years was a special gift that I believe every mother should have the opportunity and choice to experience. However, I understand it is sometimes necessary for families to have two incomes or possibly a single mom (I’ve been there) and I completely respect that. Being an at home I had awesome flexibility, my boss was handsome and I could make out with him whenever I’d like ;o), and I had the freedom to pursue my hobbies and passions. However, as the children got older I believed the Lord was leading me on a new adventure. Even as a new bundle was on the way. I was excited, yet afraid at the thought of something new.

We have a family business and at times I would assist with that, however its not where my true passion lies. My personality, although quiet and reserved, I am a people person. Aside from my art projects, I loooovvveee talking to people, learning about their journey and helping wherever I’m needed. I enjoy meeting new people and gaining wisdom from their life stories.

After much prayer and coming into agreement with my husband, I began a new journey with working outside of home. I love and enjoy my career path. Each day is new, exciting and funny. However, leaving my kids each day, whether it is with my husband or sitter, it is difficult because they were always with me. Change is hard at times and I often worry about them and wonder if I made the right choice with returning to work. Guilt tries to creep in every now and then but I constantly remind myself that it’s something I prayed for, believed in and now I have to trust God. Also, something I am doing for me. With returning back to work, some great things I’ve noticed is, my children are more independent, because I use to do it all and now they each have their own individual responsibilities; I have a new appreciation for my husband and my marriage has grown closer and stronger. Absence does make the heart grow fonder…coming home to those warm hugs and smiles is a real treat.

In Proverbs 31. The wife that is spoke of has great qualities. I’m still working on being like her…lol. However, she has so many positive traits. Although she puts her husband and family first it states that she likes working with her hands, she plants, make clothes and sells them. She has something of her own that she is working on. Her hobbies and or business is her passion and it probably gives her a “WOOSAH” moment away from husband and kids ;o)

Ladies After Wisdom (L.A.W.), whether you are a working mom, single mom, homemaker etc your role is important and needed. If you are feeling a little down or an itch for something new, it may be time for a slight change. Not sure what you are passionate about? Take some time in prayer and reflect on what moves you and makes you happy. Often when we are not working on our own goals, we can become resentful of others, Yes!! even our husbands and friends.  As moms and wives, we are constantly making sacrifices for others and often leaving ourselves to be last. Lets create balance in our lives.  I encourage you to have something you can work on and be proud of individually. It may be a hobby, volunteering at local hospital, learning a new language, singing in choir or even starting a blog ;o). Do something for yourself on a constant basis. In whatever passion you pursue, its important that you lead others to Christ in your work. Ask God to lead you…He will. L.A.W., I constantly pray for you. I love you. All is well.

Read: Proverbs 31

Affirmation: I will pursue my passion. Change is a good thing.

Prayer: Lord, thank You for my family. Thank You for blessing me with the responsibilities I have. Father, I believe that you have placed these desires in my heart for creative change in my life. I long for using my special gifts that has been hand selected by you. Lead me Father, to the right change I need in my life. I pray that this change brings more growth, joy and love into me and my families life.

In Jesus Name, Amen.



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Written by Aquilla

A Believer. A Wife. A Mom. A Writer. Continuously chasing after wisdom. Desiring to share whats being learned on this beautiful journey called life. All In hopes to encourage, uplift and motivate.


  1. Dynna says:

    This is beautiful and just what I needed to read before bedtime. Thank you for sharing.

  2. Aquilla Hicks says:

    Thanks Dynna for reading and visiting virtuous3.

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