I was scrolling Instagram looking for inspiration for my next blog post and TWICE in a row on my newsfeed the above quote from Myleik Teele, founder of Curlbox, popped up. I wanted to write about my departure from my job. Wednesday was my last day in the office although technically today was my last day. I needed to get it out of my system because it stung. And this quote made the difference.
I was let go from my job at Neiman Marcus Group on Tuesday, January 3. The day after we returned from the holiday weekend. A week after I took every blood, urine and CT scan my endocrinologist could write up for me. Just after the beginning of the new year. A few days before I’d be told I have to have surgery. It stung. I knew it was coming. God warned me. Yet, it still pinched a little bit. Not like the other times I’ve been let go. This isn’t my first time around the “we have to end your contract” rodeo. It stung because for once I didn’t know what was next and I am in the middle of a health battle.
I can vividly recall driving in my car around Christmas time. I was going shopping and running errands. When I heard the Holy Spirit ever so cavalierly say, “you won’t be at that job in 2017.” It didn’t shock or surprise me. I can always sense when my season is up somewhere. I had known since the Fall that a shift was occurring in my life. So I just agreed, praised God and kept driving. You see, I had already been interviewing elsewhere, so I just thought that I would be leaving on my own terms and in my own way. Once I applied for a job internally and I was instantly rejected, it was my sign to move on. But things didn’t happen the way I thought they would. They never do, do they?
The morning of January 3, it was like I had to pry myself out of the bed to go to work. This was not my norm. Normally, I’m up before my alarm clock rings, out the door by 7:15, on the train by 7:45 and in the office no later than 8:30. But last Tuesday I just wasn’t feeling it. I kept saying “are we SURE there are no more holidays!?” I got to work, did my morning routine, sat at my desk to field through emails. I went to look for my boss to tell her something and she wasn’t in her office. My coworker who sits across from her was gone too. I came back to my desk and told three of my friends who I instant message throughout our work days, “something is afoot. My coworker and boss keep going to meetings without me. I guess it’s time to kick up my job search.” No more than an hour later, I had a scheduled meeting with my boss when she gave me the news. “I have some unfortunate news,” she began. “We won’t be able to extend your contract. We need someone with more digital experience. It’s not personal. I think it is best for all of us.” All I could do was smile. God’s grace is sufficient. I told her I already knew it was coming. All is well.
What makes this so significant is that in the fall I began sensing that I am supposed to move. It eerily began to feel like the fall of 2011 when I first started thinking about moving to Dallas. It seemed like I was living in the movie “Groundhog’s Day” because very similar things were happening to signal a shift. At the time of this writing, I am still not sure exactly where I am supposed to be. I have a few places in mind – one is really heavy on my spirit and I don’t know why. But all of the places and everything I want to pursue are inconveniently out of the way. I can keep spinning my wheels, trying to remain in my place of comfort, but that isn’t where my success or my destiny lies. I know I will have to make a huge adjustment to get there. I can’t keep settling and resting on my laurels.
I am sharing this to encourage you to look, then leap beyond where you are. Your greatness, your success, your promise (and mine) are out there waiting for us to pursue them. It is highly unlikely that we will run into them by happenstance on our normal routine. Things on your beaten path are too familiar. So familiar that you rarely see the opportunities that are right before you. Have you ever noticed you can drive the same way to work every single day, but until you are the passenger you miss so many details along your route? It is because it is too comfortable. Too ordinary. You take those things for granted.
Girlfriend, there is a so much awaiting you. But are you willing to go inconveniently out of the way to get them? Don’t be like me and wait until you are forced to go after your heart’s desire to gain the courage and momentum to do so. Truth is, I had no business at that job in the first place. But as I said before, God’s grace is sufficient. He will sometimes give you what you want to prove to you that it is not what you need. But that’s another message for another day. What are you waiting to pursue? Share in the comments. Let’s hold each other accountable.