I planned another Christmas with her, another birthday another Holiday. I saw her there, in my mind. Deciding what I would get her for Christmas this year. You know she always wanted me to get her a pair of navy blue leather gloves with a scarf to match. And this was gonna be the year I did. My Aunt. She was one of the best dressed women I knew. Even with her cancer diagnosis, despite the negative news from doctors, I still made plans. I was gonna make sure I sat next to her at my daughter’s upcoming graduation. So I could pass her the tissue as she wiped her tears of joy as my daughter walked across stage (she acted tough but joyous occasions always made her cry). I planned on sitting beside her in church just one more time, so I could smell her perfume and eat all her peppermints, like I did when I was a little girl. Oh the plans I had. Upon her short unexpected death, as I was walking throughout her home, I could see that she still had plans, by seeing the many things she left behind. Plans to travel, plans to give and plans to live. And although there were more plans. I never got to see them through with her….
“Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.”- James 4:13-17
My middle name is Patricia. Named after my Aunt who passed. She was a feisty aunt. Funny and direct, yet very loving and giving. When I was a little girl, I loved being with her. As I got older…every so often distance grew in between us. But when we did see each other, we would pick up where we left off. Laughing. She tried to get me and the kids to visit her often, but I just didn’t make the time. With so much to do with kids, work, home and life…I would put it off. I would plan for going maybe tomorrow or next week. Which sometimes turned into next month or even next year. I loved her so much, but I always thought I had more time to say it and show it. As a year of her heavens anniversary recently passed, I am reminded again that the opportunity no longer arises for me to say the things I could’ve said more, it saddens me. This love and these words that I have just for her will forever be with me, instead of with her. That’s all because I thought I had more time. I was waiting to visit tomorrow. However, how foolish of me to not do today what I pushed away for tomorrow. Because when tomorrow came…the opportunity was gone. She was gone.
“Teach how short our lives are so that we can become wise”. – Psalm 90:12
So often we think we have time and we make many plans. We believe we have time to tell someone we love them, time to say I’m sorry, time to forgive and time to prepare. Many even believe there is much more time before Jesus returns. That we have time to get our lives together, time to make better choices, time to let go, time to hold on. What if we are wrong? What if we don’t have as much time as we think you do? We take time for granted, believing that it waits for us, acting as though we have complete control over it. Yet, there could be nothing further from the truth. We may can manage it, but we can’t control it.
I love Psalm 90:12, it’s one of my favorite scriptures. I believe that If we become more aware of how short life really is, we will stop taking it for granted. That we may stop disrespecting time, with thinking we have so much of it. We would learn how important it is to give love away and say all that we need to say today instead of waiting for tomorrow. If we are truly conscious of how short life really is, we wouldn’t worry as much, fret as much or ever fear as much. We’d pray more, live more and be more.
Ladies After Wisdom, Are you one to boast in your planning? Are you one to put important things off for another time, many of which could be taken care of today? You have words to be said? Things that need to be done? If it’s of great importance, do and say them today. It’s crucial that we seek God to discern what’s really important, because at times our priorities may not be in the right order. As hurt as I often am of my Aunt’s passing, with my mind racing with all the shoulda-coulda-wouldas, it is teaching me to live more, be more, say more, act more and give more. It has taught me that Love is our greatest priority in life. Without it, we wouldn’t look forward to tomorrow.
L.A.W., our lives is but a vapor. It is so important that we cherish each moment that we are here. Let’s not boast in ignorance about what we will do. Understand that all we have right now is this moment, this second. What will you do with it? Will you do the right thing? L.A.W., I love you. All is well ;o).
Read: James 4:13-17
Affirmation: Giving love is my highest priority. I choose to not leave things undone.
Prayer for Direction: Father, it’s me again ;). You are perfect and so worthy to be praised. I adore You and love You so. Father, I’m a Hot Mess ;), often times life gets past me. I put the important things off for a later date and bask in what satisfies the flesh at the moment. Help me to prioritize. Lead me Father to whats really important. Let no important words go unspoken and no pertinent deeds go undone in my life because I was foolish in thinking I had more time. Teach me Father, just how short my life is. So that I may become wise (Psalm 90:12).
In Jesus Name, Amen